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Sfera zakata, kak apel'sin bez kozhury, osveshchaet palisadniki,
golye tesnyashchiesya vetvi rastut iz bolot -
N'yu-Dzhersi, moj otec vedet mashinu
po shosse k N'yuarkskomu aeroportu - shpil' |mpajr Stejt,
ostrokonechnye vershiny zdanij, Manhetten vozvyshaetsya,
kak v glazah U. S. Uil'yamsa, nad liniyami elektroperedach -
shestikolesnye gruzoviki razmerenno dvizhutsya mimo,
proezd mimo N'yu-Jorka - ya zdes',
kroshechnyj pod solncem v beskonechnom belom nebe,
glazeyu na karkasy novyh zdanij,
i prosypayus' s karandashom v ruke...
11 dekabrya 1974
Kogo bombyat?
My ih bombim!
Kogo bombyat?
My ih bombim!
Kogo bombyat?
My ih bombim!
Kogo bombyat?
My ih bombim!
Kogo bombyat?
Bombish' sebya!
Kogo bombyat?
Bombish' sebya!
Kogo bombyat?
Bombish' sebya!
Kogo bombyat?
Bombish' sebya!
CHto delaem?
Kogo bombim?
CHto delaem?
Kogo bombim?
CHto delaem?
Kogo bombim?
CHto delaem?
Kogo bombim?
CHto delaem?
Da ty ih! Ty bombish'!
CHto delaem?
Da ty ih! Ty bombish'!
CHto delaem?
Da my ih! My bombim!
CHto delaem?
Da my ih! My bombim!
Kogo bombyat?
Da my tebya!
Kogo bombyat?
Da my tebya!
Kogo bombyat?
Da ty sebya!
Kogo bombyat?
Da ty sebya!
16 iyunya 1984
V shest'desyat shest' tol'ko uchus' zabotit'sya o svoem tele,
Bodro vstayu v 8 utra, pishu v tetradi,
vstayu s posteli obnazhennym, ostavlyaya gologo mal'chika spat' u steny,
smeshivayu myaso, griby, luk i zimu v kashu - zavtrak,
Proveryayu sahar, akkuratno chishchu zuby, shchetka, zubochistka, nit', zhidkost' dlya
rta,
mazhu nogi, odevayu beluyu rubashku, trusy i noski,
odinoko sizhu pered rakovinoj,
prezhde, chem prichesat'sya, schastliv eshche
ne byt' trupom.
1992
Kogda umru ya
Mne plevat', chto budet s moim telom
brosajte pepel v vozduh, rassyp'te vdol' Ist River
pohoronite urnu v |lizabet, N'yu Dzhersi, na kladbishche B'nej Israel
No ya hochu bol'shie pohorony
Sobor Svyatogo Patrika, cerkov' Svyatogo Marka, bol'shaya sinagoga na Manhettene
Prezhde vsego sem'ya, moj brat, plemyanniki, bodraya staraya |dit, macheha, ej
devyanosto shest',
i tetya.
I milaya iz starogo N'yuarka,
Kuzina Mindi, Doktor Dzhoel, bratec Dzhin, odnoglazyj, odnouhij,
i nevestka
Blondinka Konni, pyat' plemyannikov, svodnye brat'ya, sestry i ih vnuki,
moj kompan'on Piter Orlovski, zabotlivye Rozental' i Hel, Bill Morgan -
Zatem, duh moego uchitelya Trungpy Vadzhrachar'i, Gelek Rinposh, potom Sak'eng.
Mifam, bditel'nyj Dalaj Lama, vozmozhnost' posetit' Ameriku, SHatchitananda
Svami
SHivananda, Dehorahava Baba, Karmapa XVI, Dudzhom Rinpoche, duhi Katagiri
i Sudzuki Roshi
Bejker, Ualen, Dejdo Luri, Kvong, Frejl Belogolovyj Keplyu Roshi, Lama Tarchen
-
I glavnoe, potom, lyubovniki za vse polveka
Dyuzhiny, sotnya i bol'she, starye parni, s den'gami i lysye
mal'chiki, nedavno vstrechennye v posteli, tolpy udivlennyh uvidet' drug
druga,
neschetnye, intimnyj obmen vospominaniyami
"On uchil menya meditirovat', teper' ya staryj veteran tysyachednevnogo uedineniya
-"
"YA igral muzyku na platformah v metro, ya getero no lyubil ego on lyubil menya"
"YA poluchil ot nego bol'she lyubvi v 19, chem potom ot kogo-to eshche"
"My lezhali pod odeyalami, boltali, chitali moi stihi, obnimalis' i celovalis'
zhivot k zhivotu
obhvativ rukami drug druga"
"YA vsegda zalezal k nemu v krovat' v trusah, a utrom oni uzhe lezhali na polu"
"YAponec, vsegda hotel pristroit' k masteru moyu zadnicu"
"Byvalo, govorili s nim vsyu noch' o Kessidi i Keruake, sideli v pozah Buddy,
a posle spali
v posteli geniya-poeta."
"Emu, pohozhe, bylo nuzhno stol'ko lyubvi, tak stydno ne sdelat' ego
schastlivym"
"YA byl odinok, nikogda ran'she ne byl golym v posteli s kem-nibud', on byl
tak nezhen,
moj zhivot trepetal, kogda on provodil po nemu pal'cem, spuskayas' k bedram -"
"YA prosto lezhal na spine s zakrytymi glazami, on dovodil menya do orgazma
rtom,
pal'cami obnyav menya za taliyu"
"On zdorovo sosal"
I budut sluhi ot lyubovnikov iz 1948-go, duh Nila Kessidi soedinitsya s plot'yu
i yunoj krov'yu 1997-go
kakoj syurpriz - "Ty tozhe? YA dumal, ty ne goluboj!"
"Da, no Ginzberg - isklyuchenie, mne pochemu-to s nim bylo horosho"
"YA zabyval, byl ya getero, geem, zabavnym ili strannym, ya byl soboj, nezhnym
i lyubil, kogda menya celuyut v makushku,
moj lob, gorlo i serdce i solnechnoe spletenie, pupok, moj chlen, moj
zad, kotoryj on shchekotal yazykom"
"Mne nravilos', kak on citiroval : 'No pozadi vsegda ya slyshu/kak kolesnica
vremeni mne v spinu dyshit,'
golovy lezhat ryadom, glaza v glaza, na podushke -"
Sredi lyubovnikov odin yunyj krasavec brodit szadi
"YA poseshchal ego uroki poezii 17-letnim parnem, begal po porucheniyam v ego dom
bez lifta,
soblaznil menya, ya ne hotel, zastavil menya konchit', ushel domoj, nikogda ne
videl ego bol'she,
nikogda ne hotel... "
"U nego ne vstaval, no on lyubil menya," "CHistyj staryj chelovek." "On
ubezhdalsya, chto ya konchil pervym"
Skoplenie udivlennyh i gordyh na pochetnom meste ceremonii.
Potom poety i muzykanty - grandzhevye gruppy parnej iz kolledzha - zvezdy
staroj epohi "Bitlz",
chestnye trudyagi-gitaristy, golubye dirizhery klassiki,
neizvestnye kompozitory vysokogo Dzhaza, fanki-trubachi, chernye genii
izognutogo basa i valtorny,
skripachi-fol'kloristy i domry tamburiny garmoniki mandoliny
arfy svistul'ki i kazu
Zatem, hudozhniki Ital'yancy romantiki realisty obuchennye mistike v Indii v
60-e,
Pozdnie lyubimcy
|trusskie hudozhniki-poety, Klassiki-hudozhniki Massachusets syurrealisty nahaly
s evropejskimi zhenami, skudnye al'bomy gips maslo akvarel'
mastera iz amerikanskih provincij
Potom, shkol'nye uchitelya, odinokie irlandcy-bibliotekari,
utonchennye bibliofily, net dvizheniyu za svobodu seksa
armii, damy oboih polov
"YA videl ego desyatki raz on nikogda ne pomnil moego imeni ya lyubil ego
kak by to ni bylo, nastoyashchij hudozhnik"
"Nervnyj sryv posle menopauzy, yumor v ego stihah spas menya ot bol'nic dlya
samoubijc"
"CHarodej, genij sderzhannyh maner, umyvalsya, obedal v moej studii
gostil nedelyu v Budapeshte"
Tysyachi chitatelej, "'Voj' izmenil moyu zhizn' v Libertville, Illinojs"
"YA videl, kak on chital Monklera v peduchilishche, reshil stat' poetom -"
"On zavel menya, ya nachinal garazhnym rokerom, pel v Kanzas Siti"
"Posle 'Kaddisha' ya plakal o sebe i ob otce, togda eshche zhivom, v Nevade"
"'Cmert' otca' uteshila menya, kogda sestra umerla v Bostone v 1982-m"
"YA uvidel ego slova v zhurnale, mne stalo tak svetlo, ya ponyal, chto est'
drugie lyudi,
takie zhe, kak ya"
Gluhonemye bardy poyut pri pomoshchi ruk, bystrye blestyashchie zhesty
Potom ZHurnalisty, sekretari redaktorov, agenty, portretisty i fotografy
revnostnye poklonniki, rok-kritiki, kul'turnye trudyagi, istoriki kul'tury
prihodyat licezret' istoricheskie pohorony
Superfany, grafomany, stareyushchie Bitniki i Primykaly, ohotniki za
avtografami,
bespokojnye paparacci, intelligenty-prostofili
Vse znali, chto oni byli chast'yu "Istorii", krome pokojnogo,
kotoryj nikogda tochno ne znal, chto proishodit, dazhe kogda ya byl zhiv
1997
O dear sweet rosy
unattainable desire
. . .how sad, no way
to change the mad
cultivated asphodel, the
visible reality. . .
and skin's appalling
petals-- how inspired
to be so Iying in the living
room drunk naked
and dreaming, in the absence
of electricity . . .
over and over eating the low root
of the asphodel,
gray fate . . .
rolling in generation
on the flowery couch
as on a bank in Arden--
my only rose tonite's the treat
of my own nudity.
The weight of the world
is love.
Under the burden
of solitude,
under the burden
of dissatisfaction
the weight,
the weight we carry
is love.
Who can deny?
In dreams
it touches
the body,
in thought
constructs
a miracle,
in imagination
anguishes
till born
in human--
looks out of the heart
burning with purity--
for the burden of life
is love,
but we carry the weight
wearily,
and so must rest
in the arms of love
at last,
must rest in the arms
of love.
No rest
without love,
no sleep
without dreams
of love--
be mad or chill
obsessed with angels
or machines,
the final wish
is love
-- cannot be bitter,
cannot deny,
cannot withhold
if denied:
the weight is too heavy
-- must give
for no return
as thought
is given
in solitude
in all the excellence
of its excess.
The warm bodies
shine together
in the darkness,
the hand moves
to the center
of the flesh,
the skin trembles
in happiness
and the soul comes
joyful to the eye--
yes, yes,
that's what
I wanted,
I always wanted,
I always wanted,
to return
to the body
where I was born.
Drinking my tea Without sugar-
No difference.
The sparrow shits
upside down -ah! my brain & eggs
Mayan head in a Pacific driftwood bole -Someday I'll live in N.Y.
Looking over my shoulder my behind was covered with cherry blossoms.
Winter Haiku
I didn't know the names of the flowers-now my garden is gone.
I slapped the mosquito and missed. What made me do that?
Reading haiku I am unhappy, longing for the Nameless.
A frog floating in the drugstore jar: summer rain on grey pavements.
On the porch in my shorts; auto lights in the rain.
Another year has past-the world is no different.
The first thing I looked for in my old garden was The Cherry Tree.
My old desk: the first thing I looked for in my house.
My early journal: the first thing I found in my old desk.
My mother's ghost: the first thing I found in the living room.
I quit shaving but the eyes that glanced at me remained in the mirror.
The madman emerges from the movies: the street at lunchtime.
Cities of boys are in their graves, and in this town...
Lying on my side in the void: the breath in my nose.
On the fifteenth floor the dog chews a bone- Screech of taxicabs.
A hardon in New York, a boy in San Fransisco.
The moon over the roof, worms in the garden. I rent this house.
Last nite I dreamed of T.S. Eliot welcoming me to the land of dream Sofas
couches fog in England Tea in his digs Chelsea rainbows curtains on his
windows, fog seeping in the chimney but a nice warm house and an incredibly
sweet hooknosed Eliot he loved me, put me up, gave me a couch to sleep on,
conversed kindly, took me serious asked my opinion on Mayakovsky I read him
Corso Creeley Kerouac advised Burroughs Olson Huncke the bearded lady in the
Zoo, the intelligent puma in Mexico City 6 chorus boys from Zanzibar who
chanted in wornout polygot Swahili, and the rippling rhythms of Ma Rainey
and Rachel Lindsay. On the Isle of the Queen we had a long evening's
conversation Then he tucked me in my long red underwear under a silken
blanket by the fire on the sofa gave me English dottle and went off sadly to
his bed, Saying ah Ginsberg I am glad to have met a fine young man like you.
At last, I woke ashamed of myself. Is he that good and kind? Am I that
great? What's my motive dreaming his manna? What English Department would
that impress? What failure to be perfect prophet's made up here? I dream of
my kindness to T.S. Eliot wanting to be a historical poet and share in his
finance of Imagery- overambitious dream of eccentric boy. God forbid my evil
dreams come true. Last nite I dreamed of Allen Ginsberg. T.S. Eliot would've
been ashamed of me.
Under The World There's A Lot Of Ass A Lot Of Cunt
a lot of mouths and cocks, under the world there's a lot of come, and a lot
of saliva dripping into brooks, There's a lot of Shit under the world,
flowing beneath cities into rivers, a lot of urine floating under the world,
a lot of snot in the world's industrial nostrils, sweat under world's iron
arm, blood gushing out of the world's breast, endless lakes of tears, seas
of sick vomit rushing between the hemispheres floating towards Sargasso, old
oily rags and brake fluids, human gasoline-- Under the world there's pain,
fractured thighs, napalm burning in black hair, phosphorus eating elbows to
bone insectiside contaminating oceantide, plastic dolls floating across
Atlantic, Toy soldiers crowding the Pacific, B-52 bombers choking jungle air
with vaportrails and brilliant flares
Robot drones careening over rice terraces dropping cluster grenades,
plastic pellets spray into flesh,
dragontooth mines & jellied fires fall on straw roofs and water buffalos,
perforating village huts with barbed shrapnel, trenchpits filled with
fuel-gas-poisen'd explosive powders-- Under the world there's broken skulls,
crushed feet, cut eyeballs,
severed fingers, slashed jaws,
Dysentry, homeless millions, tortured hearts, empty souls.